Mindfulness
Adventures minus social media: Week three - life interruptions
A little late writing up this week’s update. Life itself has been a little distracting recently, both for good and bad reasons. As such, my focus on not using social media this month has taken a back seat.
Thankfully, I haven’t really given up and been worse than last week. If anything, I think I’m being a bit more careful with things this week. My Reddit usage has actually gone down. While I’m still sharing photos to Instagram, I’m not getting too caught up in scrolling the algorithmic feed and being caught in a time warp.
I’ve actually been reading more. I picked up a Moaan InkPalm 5 phone sized eink reader, which has given me something else to keep in my pocket and read instead of scrolling through my phone.
I’ll do a proper write up on it later when I have the energy.
Anyway, it’s probably bed time. Work is keeping me busy and we have some exciting things for the family in the next few days; so I have plenty of things outside of social media to keep my attention focused.
Move forward
My mind seems to be sabotaging me again.
Taking quite a privileged position at work and turning it into a “fight or flight” scenario; getting my anxiety up and wondering what’s next?
Once again, I find myself unfulfilled at work and I’m struggling with it. Most of the time (like right now) I can move forward and put my job as just a way to provide a lifestyle.
This morning was a different feeling though. A vagueness in my attitude, a lack of drive to do anything, a lack of energy just to move. Black dog, I know you well.
Thankfully I know the drill: you will come up with the worst possible scenarios to mull over. I have to identify them, accept it’s my brain being unreasonable, and move forward.
Always move forward. Never ignoring the minds tricks, but not wasting energy battling them and let it pass.
Context is key. I have choices here, my job itself isn’t actually bad, I have a reserve of leave available if I absolutely need it, home life has the usual stresses but we are in a far better position than most.
Balance. Not all about career happiness but not being afraid to pursue it. Not assuming the grass is greener elsewhere while also keeping the door open if something better is available.
Deep breaths. Slow the manic mind. Gratitude. Things will be fine.
Anxiety falls, clarity appears.
Move forward.