Retro tech: Using the PSION Series 5 in 2023

Sometimes I find myself going back to older technology. I don't know if it's a nostalgia thing or if the current line of tech devices are too good at multitasking that my overloaded brain craves devices that are focused on just doing one or a small number of things really well. I suspect it's a little of both.

When I bought this PSION Series 5 about a year ago it was purely for nostalgia. I loved PDAs back in my youth but never owned a PSION. Now with a little disposable income and with these devices at generally reasonable prices online, I decided to get one.

Like a lot of older technology, this device had its issues. The backlighting doesn't work and it's showing its age on parts of the outside coating; but it was working and had no issues with the main part I wanted to use: the keyboard.

While I tried to open it up to see if I could get the backlight working, I found out the ribbon cable was completely cut. A bigger job with new parts needed to try and get that working which is still more work that what I was willing to put into it. Carefully I reassembled the device and started playing.

First thing to note: while rechargeable batteries are a must with modern power hungry devices; old hardware that uses standard AA batteries is actually super convenient. No old battery pack to worry about replacing or custom charging plug to track down, just pop in 2 x AA batteries and this thing just turned on!

The keyboard is every bit as good as I imagined it to be. While it is understandable that modern electronics no longer have them, I do miss the days of devices like the PSION and the Blackberry. Typing on a GOOD physical keyboard is just so much more enjoyable for me compared to typing on a glass screen. The tactility just makes me want to write more, even if I'm likely more accurate and faster with predictive typing on modern smartphones.

Then there is the fact that this is a disconnected device; a rarity in the modern world. I recently discovered there is a term for distraction-free, single-purpose writing devices either commercially available or DIY made: writerDecks. I think this is one of the ultimate, mobile writerDecks available.

Yes initially it was a digital assistant, but these days using it for anything other than word processing would seem like a bit of a chore compared to modern devices. Thanks to it's portable size and excellent keyboard, the PSION really stacks up as a great dedicated writing device.

Of course, this is only if you can get your files off the device and onto a computer for collation, editing and publishing. No problem as the PSION has a Compact Flash card storage slot. While not as convenient as modern day SD cards, it's still relatively easy to get a card and card reader that will allow you to take files off the PSION and transfer them to a computer for use.

File compatibility is an issue as the PSION word format is not openly compatible with modern applications; however it can export those files onto your CF card as plain txt files.

Of course all of these advantages could be a me problem. Plenty of people are producing documentation on regular laptops without needing a dedicated device. I've also tried many different options to write more with minimal success: iPads with keyboard covers, focus apps on my devices, an eink writing tablet. None of these increased my writing productivity.

I do feel like I am writing more with the PSION however. I have blasts of writing flow where it feels the closest I've experienced to words just flowing from my brain to the screen. Again, this is probably a me thing.

Again, this is an old device so it's not all roses going back to old technology. As nice as this keyboard is, it is cramped so getting used to the key layout for punctuation takes some practice. That's if your keyboard works, which commonly stop working on the PSION 5 due to its folding design.
Then there's the screen. It's hard enough to read as it is, but when you have no backlight it's even more difficult; even in a decently lit environment. Annoyingly these compromises are enough for me to reconsider my use of the PSION as a writing device long term.

The future
This all has me reconsidering what I need from a writing device again and if I should find (or build) something better.

I think about not just the form factor but the capabilities needed. Connectivity is a slippery slope cause while you want a streamlined and non-proprietary way to get files off the device and onto a computer or phone, it's too easy to get to full browser capabilities with modern devices.

Then there is the hardware. A better screen with backlighting is a must, but there's also the keyboard type and size. Bigger than the PSION is probably worth it but too big and do I just go back to using my laptop with some more restrictions and hope I can leverage more self control to avoid distractions?

…or maybe I just keep using this thing and just write.

Author Note: Yes this blog post was written on the PSION 5 with slight edits on a Mac prior to publishing

It’s my birthday today

I don't really celebrate birthdays.

I believe a lot of that comes down to spending most of my late teens and early twenties being very depressed. My naturally negative mindset would lead my self worth down some dark paths before I developed some methods to address it.

As a result birthdays were often a day of internal torment; a day meant to celebrate but often felt like there was nothing to celebrate. This of course would move me into a deeper depressive state, leading me to try many things to avoid referencing the day at all. Thankfully nothing super negative but I would often take the day to turn off my phone and drive south of the state where I didn't know anyone personally to avoid any reference to my birthday at all.

To this day despite my life and mindset being significantly better (although the mind isn't fully addressed), the initial response to my birthday is one of dread. I often do my best to not remember it at all and find that I currently just tolerate it because celebrating my birthday brings joy to my wife and kids.

I'm quickly realising that there are still some unresolved negative traits in my mindset, ingrained from years of depression that I haven't moved forward from.

Any sort of self-praise in my mind is associated with an inflated sense of self-worth. As a result I'm terrible at any sort of acknowledgment of the work I do; whether its self-acknowledgement in performance reviews or feeling extremely awkward, almost to the point of embarrassment, when others call it out for me. "Isn't that what you pay me to do?" is always my first and most prominent feeling; not really accepting of any good work I've done.

Combined with a leaning towards introversion and high social anxiety levels, any form of networking on a personal or professional level has been a dead end. With the exception of being around the handful of my closet family and best friends; I'm never at ease or comfortable with myself. It's exhausting and often leads me to just wanting to be home where I feel comfortable and safe.

I feel sorry for my poor wife, who is at times the polar opposite of me socially. She's the only reason I got to my end of year work gatherings; which is causing me additional dread this year as it's my 10 year anniversary and work often does a presentation for those who reach that milestone. I only have to get my name called out and stand out with a bunch of others for 5 minutes but it makes me anxious just thinking about it. I've have been close to cancelling the RSVP a few times, my wife is the only reason I don't.

Of course, the fact that this self-negativity is one of my major concerns in my life is such a privilege compared to what most of the world is going though. The reason I have been more focused on it recently is I see these negative mindset traits in my kids occasionally as they get older. Wanting to help them avoid what I've put myself through is a powerful motivator. Hopefully the journey of self-discovery I'm currently doing will help me teach them the tools needed to avoid or manage their own doubts in the future.

Honestly I don't know why I'm prompted to write let alone publish this today. Quite possibly the simple act of writing it down is purely cathartic.

One day, I hope I can be in a mindset to actually celebrate my own birthday. Until then, I'll take the joy it brings to my kids as enough for now.